hey there, hi there, ho there.

I'm finally doing the Right things I needed to do.

Freeing my mind of the crap that troubles me, and even the New thing i learned today is helping me alot. Looking on it, I maybe didnt know what was best for myself before. I mean, look at what I've been doing for the past year, though ive Learned, ive suffered a deal. Now is the time where i must act like a soon to be Man and take on responsibilities and conduct myself in a manner appropriate to the calm and collected guy i am. That means focusing harder on school and priorites, and focusing less on what brings me unhappiness.

Today..was an alright, no, pretty good day for me. i made progress on my painting and its coming along nicely. This morning though i didnt really feel like talking to anybody. See, last night i was working on negating my bad memories and thoughts and i was doing pretty well...until i woke up this morning. for some reason, idk what the hell's wrong with me, but still the thought of those two...gets to me. Maybe its because i felt left out, i dunno. I know things that im not supposed to know and things no one knows i know, that makes it even harder. Anyway, Z seemed to be upset this morning as she walked to class quickly and didnt say anything to me. First period, fine, i painted. Second period, ok, i talked with my Brother ab Plans, Third, engh, i had to do work and crap, but i was entertained though. As i sat in third period, i concluded that i needed to see Mrs. Kennedy and see if i can get the resources and find the necessary help for myself. Talking to her served me some Good, i felt better coming out, i was told i was mature and that i can do something most ppl Cant, and thats being in touch and true with my enormous amounts of emotions. I got to fourth period late and i all of a sudden fell asleep, that shocked me, and when i woke up, i felt Really Good I went and met Mai after fourth and whatever and i was just feeling good. (mind you that im typing this while being very sleepy atm) fifth period was nice cause i Actually understood it And we didnt have homework, Yay!

That Thought kept trying to creep itself into my mind, but i ignored it and did work.....srry Gotta cut this short, im Too sleey....WILL ADD ON LATER